Thoughts

          hi.....here, i will try to narrate some of the complications of my more complicated life,        yes i will make it clear to all the readers that i am the kind of person who wants perfectness .This is just impossible .Yeah if we try to achieve it we can be close to it through our dedications yet not hundred percent ever. Okay come to the point ,my more complicated life has a complication that is my HAIR . i admit it that i donot have flawless hair inspite of so many struggles ,i could not make them as gorgeous as i wished but i did not lose the hope.    how funny it is,People compliment me for my beautiful skin ,yeah the reason behind is exactly i do not know but i drink water not in adequate quantity but with such a love.For me,the perfect drink is none other than water.But there is another point of having acne less skin .What is that? dry skin :( this dryness where add benefits to my healthy complexion,it is the culprit for my dry,thin and dull hair. When i entered in

haan jaanti hon ke tum mujhy pasand nahi karty ,,jesy tm ne meri tasveer apny zehn ke konon main chispa kar rakhi the .han nahi hon main wesi magar main ne bhi kabhi tmhen youn ni kaha ke tum mjh mein ek hoor jesa wajood dekho ge.Yeh sab to tumhari takhleeq thi naa, Yaad hai ke tum ne mujh se apni awaz sunany ko bola to main ne tmhen sharmaty aur kuch had tak darty huy inkaar kiya ke kahin meri zindagi mein barson baad i yeh khafeef musarat ki ghari mjh se moun morr na le to tum ne mujhy yqeen dilaya ke mery lye tmhri sadgi r be los muhabbat hi buhat hai.Meri awaaz sun ke tum ne mjhy apni shehzadi bola tha yaad kro kyun ke meri awaaz koyal ki yaad dilati hai .Tab tum boly ke yaqeenan tum hoor hi hogi aesi dilkush awaz ki malik mamooli soorat wali nahi ho sakti.Main tab bhi boli ke waqt awaz aur dil ke mery mein kuch dilkashi nhi hai magar tum pe tasawur aur ajeeb se aitemaad ka jadu tha .Aj main tmhry mangny pe majbor ho ke be naqaab aa gai hon aur tum ne kuch sochy mujh se sab naaty

Sometimes , it just like why I am in this shit world . it feels like I do not belong to this strange place , When I see other peoples so pacified , happy and excited with their existence means what they have got place in their lives as well in others . In other words , I do not find my self contented with what I am , what I have . These thoughts make myself pitiable for me ...... it does not happen to me all the time but at a specific time of each month or sometimes after a latent period of one month . I have done many researches , I have found that I have a unique personality type covering 4% of population , one more thing that supports the revelation of these thoughts as I belong to Sagittarius zodiac sign . Sometimes , diagnosis is GADS , another time it is OCD then ADHD , ohhhh , so many psychological problems . My life just looks confusi